Change your thoughts and you change your world. -Norman Vincent Peale

Unfortunately, this is not always a good thing.

FBLA State was pretty fun. I went hot-tubbing with Rachel and Ashley, went shopping with Diana and Kristi....all kinds of good stuff. I got my Introduction to Business and Introduction to Business Communications tests done quickly spent the rest of the three days shadowing either Rachel or Kristi. I avoided many social gatherings (including the two dances) in favor of reading a book and was later mocked for this.

Last night I was "allowed" to be a voting delegate, but it was ok because I didn't have to walk across the bridge to that horrible restaurant. There was a downside to my being a voting delegate, but it really had nothing to do with the nature of the job, merely the people I enjoyed it with. Ah well, c'est la vie.

This morning started off strangely when I had this extremely odd dream....I really can't explain it save to say my piano teacher was there and a friend from school and now I'm kinda confused........ After quickly getting dressed and stowing our things in Stern's room, the entire RHS FBLA crew made our way to the closing ceremony for the state leadership conference. It was three and a half hours of mind-numbing tedium. Of course, there where the lovely breaks in the monotony when people from RHS did really well and I got to stand up and cheer for them, but in between those times I found solace in the comfort of my lovely book. I didn't get into the top ten in either of my events, but that's cool, I didn't really want to go to Denver anyway, I'd rather take voice lessons this summer or maybe get a job.

After returning home from my little trip I spent a little time returning to reality at home and then headed over to RHS to catch the tail-end of my Gov./Econ. class and then go to math. Math was not that bad, not that good, but when I got home I found myself feeling odd. I feel kinda disappointed that I didn't even make top ten in FBLA even though I knew I'd done my best, and I'm really confused about certain things in my life. My brain seems to be changin' itself up without telling me and is leaving me feeling a bit distraught. Something odd is going on way back in my subconscious that is making me feel a little out of it. I should probably just sit back, relax, and wait for this whole thing to blow over, but I really just wish I knew what my brain is hiding from me. It'd be nice to actually know and understand what's going on in my own head.....

So, if you see me in the halls and I look a little down, i"m ok, I just need therapy...or a good nap....